I’m still grieving your betrayal.

I’m still here holding all of this love, all of this shame, all of these different shades of memories from the brightest to the ones now painted black…I’m still here with your ghost, as it sits with my delicate frame and the beautiful wild seed blooming and blossoming inside of it. The one we planted together, the one you left me to nurture…The one that grieves and swallows my tears. The only reason I’m not hollow. I’m still here. Are you chasing a moment to escape a memory? Do you love her like I loved you? Like I still do?

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Visions of love.

It’s a feeling so benign, when someone you never knew you were meant to find appears

How I wish my younger self could say it’s worth the wait—the patience…

That one day you’ll meet someone who will love you for everything that you were taught to hate about yourself

Through fate, someone will teach you that you should never dull who you are

That everything you possess fits with someone else’s stars

The same constellation

When you find it, you see things differently

You finally feel like you’re meant to be unapologetically you

Whether it’s too much or not enough

Or a set back or nothing to back it up

It’s that rawness, that vulnerability

It’s that part of you that you’ve always mocked as incompatibility

That’s what you’ve accepted and embraced

When someone comes out from your hiding and lights up everything that’s inside of you

You glow with a new light

Not one that’s fake with lime

One that’s awakening everything you thought you should hide

And that’s what you do

But you don’t even know that you’ve changed my life

I look at you and I see myself intertwined

Like I’m the most beautiful and fragile find

And that’s why you love me

Because you see me differently

You see me as strong in that way

and that’s why I want you to stay

You make me believe for the first time

That someone can appreciate everything that’s mine

Someone I can give the good along with the bad and they still remain kind

I love every part of your soul

Even if I don’t know it all yet

But I already know that the bad parts I don’t know, I’ll never regret

You feel safe

I don’t know if I’m a safe bet

I’m betting I’m not

But you…I’m betting you are

Your freckles lay out the constellation I look for in stars

Something that guides me

You’re the most beautiful constellation or even complication that I’ve ever seen

Something that finally follows something or anything…like I’ve never felt before.

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